i think i was abused but i dont want to tell anyone

My mom won’t listen to me

When I see my friend interact with her family, her sister and her dad and her mom, I see a happy family that’s like her and laughs and isn’t perfect but isn’t broken. When I see that I feel so unbelievably happy, and I think “is this how a family is supposed to be? Is my family that dysfunctional and borderline emotionally abusive, that I can’t even tell what a normal family is anymore?”. I think my family is somehow a bit broken. I don’t know how to fix it.

Famille

Getting bullyed

I am worried all loose all my friends because of the people that pick on me.. Iam afraid they’ll start hating me too because of the way I dress and the music I listen too.

Never being good enough.

I worry that my dad is going to be mad when I tell him I want to live full time with mom.

that I wont get over my ED.

That I’m just not living the life that I expected for myself !

I’m afraid that I’ll go as crazy as I feel

I’m worried that I will grow up to be a failure and never accomplish anything

I’m afraid that people will soon see me the way I see myself.

Not being able to feel normal because I’m bi sexual and I got a eating disorder am I broken?

That I’ll never be noticed but always looked through by people as if I don’t even exist, I’m just invisible.

I’m worried that I’ll start cutting again

Im afraid im gonna relapse

Everything is falling apart

I’m not good enough for my boyfriend

Everyday I worry about my sIze and being bigger than the other girls, It’s making my confidence ALOT worse everyday Why can’t I just be skinny ?