I worry that I’m dragging everyone down with me and my problems

I worry I’m gonna have a hard time in high school

I’m scared the future is so unclear and it freaks the shit out of me. I don’t have a real family anymore and it hurts

I met a guy online I like but I can’t tell my parents :/

I left deviantart a few months ago and someone was impersonating me and messaging all my friends and making them mad at “me”. One of my good friends was messaged by this person and my friend said she hated me, and basically that our entire friendship was a lie through her/his quite perfect teeth. I wish I could apologize and I did last night and told her the story, but she/he doesn’t believe me.

I never dated or had a first kiss before its annoying

My family is scared for me and I understand. But the ways my mom tries to help makes things worse. I know she will never understand but it frustrates me so much. She makes me feel belittled a patronized, like I’m a kid not to be trusted alone for 5 minutes.

That I’m too far for help

I worry that my dark thoughts will eventually become a reality. I experienced a very traumatic childhood. I was sexually assaulted by a 33 year old when I was only 12 years old, he had done that 4 times in the one night. I live with a deep regret that I never done the right thing, I feel that I should have stopped it from happening the first time. I was scared and felt so alone. I never quite understood what was going on completely as I was 12 at the time. I endured such a long court process. It took 3 years for it to actually proceed. It was a hard thing to agree to, I had to get up in court and tell people I barely know my story, my secret. After I told my story it just became harder, the defends attorney made me feel like an idiot, she twisted my words and made me feel weak. I had the same VSC for 3 years and then she left, she couldn’t take on my case anymore. I feel like whenever I trust someone they walk away. My father was very upset when I told him what happened. He was mad that I didn’t tell him right away, he took it very hard as it was his best friend who done it. I needed him the most after it happened but he experienced depression leaving me to figure out my problems by myself. I never had a mother figure in my life and I was dependent on my dad. He wasn’t there. Nobody was. Nobody understands. He don’t know how it feels to constantly feel alone, empty, and worthless. I need someone. My dreams are getting bad, I have seen me kill myself in over 10 ways through my dreams. I feel like nobody hears me. Like I’m invisible. Like I can’t escape the dangers of my mind. I need to be heard.

I worrie about my marks and not to long ago my mom got mad at me from one of them and I’m still getting the lectures about how I have to do good in school

what worries me is being judged. I feel like no matter what I say if do someone always has to mock me, tease me or pick at me. they think it’s alright I guess I kinda play it off as cool. but it really bothers me and sometimes I wonder why I’m even friends with them.

I’m worried that my scars will cause people to judge me.

I’m worried I’ll be pressured into something I don’t want to do.

I’m the fat one out of my group of friends. I hate that they always look so good in everything they wear, and I just look like a fat blob. They’re really supportive and always tell me I’m not fat, and sometimes I believe them but then I look in the mirror. I am so self conscious of everything that I wear. I just feel like I’m not good enough. I’m really trying to lose weight, and then something goes wrong and I eat a lot. But then I feel so bad after eating, I think I might have an eating disorder.

I left school early for the past couple of days and people are saying that things about me. I hadn’t shared what was going on with anyone at school yet people are saying I’m “faking depression” . The only thing that was visible was me scratching myself out of stress. Not Huge scratches or anything just scratching in the same little spot, and a scab would be there. My hands just looked a little rough, it makes me worry what other things people say behind my back.

My religion making life harder when it’s supposed to do the opposite. I worry all the time whether I’m dissapointing or hurting God because of rough patch I’m going through.

I’m worried my friends aren’t really my friends. I’m paranoid it’s all some big joke and they actually hate me. I trusted them with so much I feel as if I’m annoying and the person everyone kinda tolerates to be around.

My parents saw my scars and told me to grow up out of it and stop being a baby. They don’t even know or care about what’s going on in my life.

I have a girlfriend right now, but I think I’m falling for another girl… I love my current girlfriend, like I really really care about her but I don’t know if I want to still be in a relationship with her or this other girl I’m falling for. I’m a lesbian by the way. See my girlfriend right now lives across the province from me and the girl I’m falling for is in my school. I just don’t like long distance relationships. What should I do? I’m totally lost and I dot know what to do.

I worry when the summer comes and I start wearing shorts people around me will notice the scars on my legs