I missed that much school in over two months either skips off or just ain’t feeling like going because knowing how the people are there making fun over stuff that has happened and coming home everyday almost because anxiety attacks… Stuff is pretty scary for a lot of us
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I worry that I’ll never stop getting picked on by ALOT of people or that I’ll never get a boyfriend ever again
I worry that I’m loosing respect from my parents and family and friends…
I worry about everything is gonna go wrong for me… I’m already going down the wrong path with life…only 14 and can’t stand this kinda life!:(
I worry way too much..
I worry about being alone when my bf is out of town!
im worried that my friend will tell on me what do i do
I’m scared of going to school an gettin bullied! I think I’m going to hurt my self and I’m scared
My parents fight, it causes me to be suicidal, I cut, I’m worried that when I have children this might be how I end up…
I worry about worrying..
I worry that because of the pain people have put me through in the past that I’ll end up being the cause of someone’s suicide. I had someone tell me that they’d kill themselves if I didn’t sent him an explicit video, when I said no, he sent me a video of him attempting to OD. So I had to. People say that if someone blames you for being suicidal then they are only playing a game, I want to believe that but, others have blamed their suicidal thoughts on me and I feel like a monster. I find myself being mean to people without thinking, without trying, I can’t control it. I’ve become a shell of the person I used to be. The guilt is tearing me apart. Today I checked the obituaries to see if an aquaintance killed himself because he miss understood something I had said. I feel like if I could cause pain on purpose then I’d be able to stop myself. But that’s stupid. Today my friend didn’t answer my texts, I thought it was because she was mad at me for saying things to my acquaintance, who is her best friend. So, I skipped out and went home early to cut myself. I’ve only started recently, someone told me it was great so I had to try it. I don’t regret it. I might regret the scars. I’ve started carving my insecurities into my thigh. Things like monster, lovely, evil, fat. … I don’t see myself stopping, even if I want to wear shorts again some day. Other then that I see no point in stopping.
I’m worried about losing the ability to cope again.
I’m worried that my best and only friend won’t give me a second chance
I think I screwed everything up with one of the most important people in my life my best friend the only one I actually really trust and she understands me and I said one stupid thing and she got so mad and I think she hates me but I’m nothing without her and I don’t wanna loose we but I think it’s too late 🙁
That I’ll never find the energy to be as happy as I used to be
I feel like my friends aren’t actually my friends. I mean, it used to just be a few jokes at my expense, just teasing, right. And it was the same with everyone, I guess it was distributed equally. And the jokes were funny too, but now it’s not. They’re always at my expense, and they think I have this list of guys that I like, and every time I try to tell them any differant, they don’t listen. They even go and tell people that I like them. When I have no feelings for them, whatsoever. Which is really mean. I don’t even know some of them… But they can be sweet like 20% of the time too, I know 20 is a failing grade but still, I’ve known these people since I was little. Should I tell them too stop or just back away? I’m so lost… Help.
I fine myself worrying about everything… Anxiety and lack of sleep don’t help. Hoping to work through this!!
Parents think that school isn’t stressful. But literally all you feel while being there is stressed out. It would be fine if things were interesting and the teachers cared and the students weren’t assholes! All that is focused on in school is grades. It’s not about learning and being interested in your classes, it’s all about grades. In school, you are based on your grades and that’s all. You’re judged by the grades that you get. The teachers couldn’t care less if you fail because they do a shitty job at trying to help. School is not a place I like to be, I’ll admit that. Feels like a freaking hell hole.
My anxiety will stop me from doing the things I want to do.
That the people I care most about don’t care about me at all.