I liked a guy. He liked me. I lost feelings. I told him. He won’t stop texting me now, and he was in with a group of friends that helped further my depression, who I’ve ended things with. I don’t want to talk to him anymore. I want to be left alone from him. It makes me want to cry just thinking about him, and I want him to just screw off!

I use to always be talkitive and Energetic and wanting to go outside with friends but lately I haven’t been the same. I rather stay inside and be close to family. I went out with friends the other night though I felt like I didn’t get involved with conversations as much or the same as before and they noticed I didn’t talk the same they asked me what was wrong and I couldn’t answer cause I didn’t really know myself…

I don’t know how to cope, with anything. Everything seems to be moving too fast. Like my life is a movie on fast forward. I don’t like it. I thought I wanted to grow up and be independent and stuff but now I realize life is pretty hard. I don’t know if I can deal with all the changes and curve balls life throws my way. I’m only 15 but I can’t stop thinking about how much is changing.

I use to think I was pretty the way I was until my parents told me I was the dirtiest looking one in my class just because I don’t ware makeup and do my hair up nice. And now I always look in the mirror and ask my self why do I look this way, why am I ugly, why can’t I look like the pretty girls in my class. I always have those questions on my mind and they just won’t go away, I hope this doesn’t lead to depression or anxiety.

I’m scared of high school everyone looks at you while you walk down the halls and all your thinking is I don’t wanna be here.

Why I hate my body so much.

That my parents will find out I do drugs.

Its past midnight and I have 3 assignments due tomorrow not done.

That I am missing out in life because I spend to much time on my iPad

that I’ll never make anyone happy

By the time I graduate everyone I hold dear will have left me.

My mom keeps telling me I’m not gay

My friend betraying me and talking about me behind my back to their other friends

That my constant sadness will continue getting worse.

I have so much stress just from school and social expectations and I don’t know how to deal with it all

I have no friends, I spend weekends alone and the last time I left my house was months ago and I had to tell my mom I didn’t want to do anything for my birthday because The people I asked to spend my birthday with me made up excuses not to go

I’m loosing confidence and it hurts 🙁

I will be fatter then everyone else and be made fun of.

My dad yells at me for no reason at all and then makes up excuses for yelling… And if that isn’t bad enough he tells me I should treat him better… He just honestly makes me not wanna live… 🙁

I hate everything about myself. I was anorexic for four years and I self harmed for ten years (I’m 16). I’ve tried to kill myself upwards of 70 times. I’m pretty much fully recovered but I still have severe anxiety and depression. I’m so insecure I’m fearful of relapsing.