I’m in my second semester of collage and I’m glad I got through the first but it was really tough and stressful on me especially living so far from my boyfriend. I’m afraid that this distance is the reason why I’m not doing as well as I should be but I also don’t want to give him up and I’m not sure what to do.

How depressed my friends are.

I am going to be charged will shop lifting, I didn’t do it but I was there when my friend did.

I worry that I’ll always be unmotivated, anxious and thinking negatively about my capability of doing things. I worry that it’ll never get better and I’ll be stuck in the same place with the same horrible feelings forever.

I worry that I will have a panic attack in a public place.

I don’t think I’ll get into university

Turning into my parents. They’re good people but they’re not the people I want to be.

That my gpa isn’t high because I am not happy and can’t focus 100% on my studies.

Sometimes I’ve told various lies to people that aren’t in my school and I am very frightened that somebody will find out…

that I’ll be anxious for ever

People will hate me when they find out I cut

Anxiety is taking over my life.

Parent dying

Im worried because my best friend was in a fight with a girl that I try to be friends with but she just hates me and she says I “p” her off but I have been so nice and friendly towards her anyway they made up but I’m really scared that my best friend will forget about me and I’m scared she won’t talk to me As much as she usually does and That things will go back to how they were a week ago 🙁

I can’t take another day of all of this that’s going on in my life I wish my parents would understand how Important I am to them

I worry that all my friends will stab my back one day for no reason and just leave me… Alone. And everyone will just forget about me.

I worry that I’ll never be able to overcome my anxiety and it’ll prevent me from doing amazing things in the future

I think my friends exclude me from all of their conversations

My friends will see my scars

I should start of my saying I am 16 year old girl with boyfriend troubles and I need help and guidness. Ok, so my boyfriend is transsexual, therefore, he wants to be a girl, but still likes girls. We’ve been dating almost a year now. Though, I found out a month ago he has been talking to this guy pretending to be a girl. I was incomfotbale about it, but I understood, and asked him to stop. But after a month I found oute was still doing it. Flirting and Turing this guy on. He sad also sent fake pictures of a girl to pass off as himself. I asked him; Q1: “why did you break your promise?” Ans.: “I forgot” This isn’t uncommon for him because he doesn’t have the best memory and I ud rest and that but if it comes to a point he’s moemeoey affect our relationship, I have every right to be mad, right? Q2: “Why did you cheat on me?” AMS.: “Cheating? I never considered it like that. I wasn’t being myself, it was a ‘Costume’.” This is considered cheating! Plus this is who he wants to be on the inside, a girl! So it is him! Q3: “Why a guy?” Ans.: “Thought it would hurt you less.” I asked this to see why a guy, though cheating is cheating, I just thought he liked girls. He keeps saying he does not like him, but I don’t know. And plus, he technically admitted he cheated! Q4: “Why did you make the conversation sexual?” Ans.: “So I can be a tease like you. I can never tease you because you have better control than me., so I decided to get pay back this way.” First off I should say, my boyfriend has issues with controlling he’s sexual desires, so he ends up trying to do stuff to me without ‘trying’. And I do tease him playfully, but the way he said it, it was cruel in my opinion. Ok before I say the finally Question I asked I should explain that he has “accidently” started dating this guy. Q5: “Why did you start dating him yesterday?” Ans.: “Because I felt bad for the guy, plus it was an accident. I said something with ‘your girl’ in it and he thought I agreed to go out with him.” Funny how he cares more about what the guy feels instead of me. He always does that, he cares more about he’s image and what he’s friend think than my own feelings sometimes. That just such a stupid excuse anyway. See my true problem is I love him too much to let him go, but I’m not into girls. Plus, my biggest fear is that one day, matter having a family, I’ll wake up with him gone. Him Running off with a man and leaving me. That’s if we actually last that long of course. But you see my point. I need help..