My religious family doesn’t know that im gay

I’m so sad and idk why! I just want to be happy but for some reason I can’t. I want to recover from anorexia but I want to be stick thin. I hate this.

About going to a new school

I have OCD and sometimes it’s really hard…

I used to think I knew a lot. I do know a lot, I guess. In the sense of like reading books and doing math, im okay at it. When I think about life though, when I think about my life and just the general way the world is today I feel like an idiot and I feel pretty scared.

When ever I come home from school I lock my self in my room for the whole day, I do this because I lost all my friends every since grade 6 and I can’t talk to my mom about this anymore because she just says that I’m being shy around them…I feel alone, no one wants to be around me.

I am constantly anxious about my health and well being.

My friends talking about me.

That I will have sex when before I am ready because I really don’t want to lose my boyfriend.

Public speaking

That I will never be good enough for myself and others

That my mom won’t stop treating me bad, even if she’s drunk or not …

I worry mom and dad will be mad at me

I’m afraid of dying

I am a weirdo

Will my mom freak if I tell her I’m bisexual

That I won’t recover

My grades aren’t good enough:( I’m afraid I won’t graduate

My sexuality is confusing me … I just want to figure it out already

my dad smokes. I’m worried that it is going to take his life