I feel overwhelmed by all my school work and studying for finals, and on top of that, I have a choir performance this weekend that I wasn’t told about. My best friend just started dating the guy I love, but I don’t want to say anything because she seems so happy, but everytime I see them kiss, I think of the way he used to kiss me and tell me everything was gonna be okay. I struggle in school because I’m dyslexic and I have anxiety, and bipolar depression. And all my friends joke around about these disorders and it hurts because they have no idea what it’s like to wake up and contemplate killing yourself because you don’t want to face the day. But for some reason, I’m still here. I’m still kicking. And I guess I’m a little bit glad for that.

I started flirting with a guy three years older then me who’s in foster care. We both developed feelings, but it stressed me out too much and I lost romantic feelings. His father left when he was younger, and I’m afraid he feels like I abandoned him too. I can’t deal with the guilt of it.

Last month my cat died, he was like my bestfriend he always listened to me talk about my problems and was always there to cuddle . And Im so depressed over it…

I keep having days where everything feels wrong. I haven’t been to school the last 3 days cause I told my mom I’m sick but I’m just sad. I don’t know what it means, it just keeps happening. I don’t know how to talk about it. I don’t know what it is.

I’m worried that no one will ever pick up on when I say “I’m fine” or “o no I’m tired that’s all” that I’m actually suffering and I want someone to talk to but I’m to nervous to say 🙁

I have booked an appointment to see my school counselor, & I hope she can help me through some stuff that’s on my mind right now

Me being pregnant and my parents getting a divorce. Maybe I won’t think before I act like last time.

My looks.

Language class

My social anxiety & my depression

That my dads anger and my moms depression will pass down to me and add to my anxiety/social phobia that I already have.

that I’m the reason my parents are fighting.

I’ll have a mental breakdown in the middlenof class

That I will never want to stop cutting..

I failed a midterm

i worry that im just going to break down, give up, and do what ive been thinking about doing for a long long time

im just mad

My mom has new boyfriend I can’t handle it anymore 🙁

That I’m not good enough for my boyfriend

I’m worried I’m falling in love with someone who is gonna hurt me