I have OCD and sometimes it’s really hard…

I used to think I knew a lot. I do know a lot, I guess. In the sense of like reading books and doing math, im okay at it. When I think about life though, when I think about my life and just the general way the world is today I feel like an idiot and I feel pretty scared.

When ever I come home from school I lock my self in my room for the whole day, I do this because I lost all my friends every since grade 6 and I can’t talk to my mom about this anymore because she just says that I’m being shy around them…I feel alone, no one wants to be around me.

I am constantly anxious about my health and well being.

My friends talking about me.

That I will have sex when before I am ready because I really don’t want to lose my boyfriend.

Public speaking

That I will never be good enough for myself and others

That my mom won’t stop treating me bad, even if she’s drunk or not …

I worry mom and dad will be mad at me

I’m afraid of dying

I really like this guy but I’m fat and know he won’t like me back.

I worry I won’t come out of my shell. I don’t care how many friends I have, I just want to be more confident.

I failed all my mid-terms

I worry about everything. I can’t even make it to work 75% of the time 🙁

I’m worried about all of you who leave comments. I wish I could help everyone one of you. Just remember someone out there cares 🙂 🙂

Me and my boyfriend broke up and I’m scared I won’t be able to find someone to take to grad

Failure

This past January I was told I was depressed, from a chemical imbalance in my brain. It didn’t start that way there is a whole story how it has gotten to this point. but I don’t know how to explain to make things sound simple, but the thing is depression is not simple and I can’t explain to others to make them understand. Some days are harder than others and I miss a lot of school sometimes and I don’t know what to tell my friends so I just say I’m sick, they think I fake because I come to school fine the next day. It’s hard hiding apart of you from the rest of the world.

I’m scared people are lying about me being a good singer