I’m so sad all the time and I feel like nobody likes me for who I am.

I stopped cutting for a year or more and relapsed last night

I’m worried about being worried

I have no idea what I’m going to do after high school and it’s really stressing me out. There are so many directions to go it’s making Myhead spin

There’s this girl in class who’s my BFF and I have had a crush on her probably since grade 3-4 and she still don’t know but idk what her response or reaction would be if she realises that after all these years, she finally knows that I like her

I dint know what it is but I always have these thoughts that I have to do something really stupid (example: switch the lights on and off 11 times before I leave the room) and if I don’t do it then something bad will happen (example: a loved one will pass.) sometimes I try to avoid doing these tasks but it brings a lot of anxiety on me:(

I have social anxiety, I can’t go out with my family anymore and when I do I can break down at any moment. I’m worried that will happen.

I’m worried that I will never be good enough, nobody expects a whole lot of of me but I still disappoint them, I can’t seem to function like everyone else and I’m afraid that soon everyone will give up on me and I will give up on myself.

I liked a guy. He liked me. I lost feelings. I told him. He won’t stop texting me now, and he was in with a group of friends that helped further my depression, who I’ve ended things with. I don’t want to talk to him anymore. I want to be left alone from him. It makes me want to cry just thinking about him, and I want him to just screw off!

I use to always be talkitive and Energetic and wanting to go outside with friends but lately I haven’t been the same. I rather stay inside and be close to family. I went out with friends the other night though I felt like I didn’t get involved with conversations as much or the same as before and they noticed I didn’t talk the same they asked me what was wrong and I couldn’t answer cause I didn’t really know myself…

I’m terrified. I can feel my depression coming back. Each time is worse than the last and I’m terrified that this time I really will kill myself.

I don’t know how to cope, with anything. Everything seems to be moving too fast. Like my life is a movie on fast forward. I don’t like it. I thought I wanted to grow up and be independent and stuff but now I realize life is pretty hard. I don’t know if I can deal with all the changes and curve balls life throws my way. I’m only 15 but I can’t stop thinking about how much is changing.

I use to think I was pretty the way I was until my parents told me I was the dirtiest looking one in my class just because I don’t ware makeup and do my hair up nice. And now I always look in the mirror and ask my self why do I look this way, why am I ugly, why can’t I look like the pretty girls in my class. I always have those questions on my mind and they just won’t go away, I hope this doesn’t lead to depression or anxiety.

I’m scared of high school everyone looks at you while you walk down the halls and all your thinking is I don’t wanna be here.

Why I hate my body so much.

That my parents will find out I do drugs.

Its past midnight and I have 3 assignments due tomorrow not done.

That I am missing out in life because I spend to much time on my iPad

that I’ll never make anyone happy

By the time I graduate everyone I hold dear will have left me.