I am worried about my test next week. 🙁

I’m not sure what my sexual orientation is and I’m afraid my friends are gonna judge me

I feel overwhelmed by all my school work and studying for finals, and on top of that, I have a choir performance this weekend that I wasn’t told about. My best friend just started dating the guy I love, but I don’t want to say anything because she seems so happy, but everytime I see them kiss, I think of the way he used to kiss me and tell me everything was gonna be okay. I struggle in school because I’m dyslexic and I have anxiety, and bipolar depression. And all my friends joke around about these disorders and it hurts because they have no idea what it’s like to wake up and contemplate killing yourself because you don’t want to face the day. But for some reason, I’m still here. I’m still kicking. And I guess I’m a little bit glad for that.

I started flirting with a guy three years older then me who’s in foster care. We both developed feelings, but it stressed me out too much and I lost romantic feelings. His father left when he was younger, and I’m afraid he feels like I abandoned him too. I can’t deal with the guilt of it.

Last month my cat died, he was like my bestfriend he always listened to me talk about my problems and was always there to cuddle . And Im so depressed over it…

I keep having days where everything feels wrong. I haven’t been to school the last 3 days cause I told my mom I’m sick but I’m just sad. I don’t know what it means, it just keeps happening. I don’t know how to talk about it. I don’t know what it is.

I’m worried that no one will ever pick up on when I say “I’m fine” or “o no I’m tired that’s all” that I’m actually suffering and I want someone to talk to but I’m to nervous to say 🙁

I have booked an appointment to see my school counselor, & I hope she can help me through some stuff that’s on my mind right now

Boyfriend

Coming out to my family and their judgement/reactions.

I worry I have an STD because I had sex with a guy who is a player.

I’ll never figure out what I want to grow up to be.

That I won’t have a good job when I get older and will struggle in life

That my friends and family hate me

That I’ll never be able to stop cutting.

I will never get over social anxiety

I worry my parents won’t understand how bad my anxiety is and will just say I’m full of crap

Feeling like I’m not worthy of anything anymore. I’ve lost all hope

My Depression is going to win

My whole family calls me fat and they have given me a poor body image