Not being good enough to find someone who will love me for the broken mess i am

My friend doesn’t realize how amazing she really is.

I’m failing math and close to failing science.

I try to act funny and cool I guess around my crush but turns out I just look and sound plain stupid…

I worry about life in general.

Not being able to pass high school.

Deciding on a Career I must do for the rest of my life.

Never being good enough,

One word School..

That I will amount to nothing and let my parents down

That I could’ve prevented my best friend’s suicide

I have a crush on a girl but I have a boyfriend

I worry; that I’m gonna ruin my happiness once again, I do it all the time. I have a boyfriend who means everything to me; I’ve had struggled with depression, self-harm and suicidal thoughts in the past. I’m on the road to recovery, it’s a long hard road and if i slip back into my depression.. I may just end it.

Its past midnight and I have 3 assignments due tomorrow not done.

I want to ask for help but I’m afraid my parents will brush it off and say theres nothing wrong with me, or I’ll be called an attention seeker.

Language class

School

I’m afraid to tell my parents about my boyfriend.

Im scared to come out as gender fluid to my parents.

Public speaking