is she talking behind my back

Im sad all the time, like 100% of the time. I was on antidepressants and they made my self harm worse, I didn’t take them right though. I think I just don’t want to lose the attention given to me from my issues, I’m just that horrible. I’ve tried to commit 4 times, I died once but was unfortunately revived. I hurt my mom and dad by being sad and I just want to be the independent little girl they want back. And my amazing boyfriend is addicted to a pill and it’s really hurting me and stressing me out but I need to help him and I care about him so much. I cry myself to sleep every single night wanting to cut but knowing if I do he’ll do a pill and I’ll harm him more than me. My life’s a mess and I’m ready for it to be over.

I worry about the people I love. I worry about my best friends and if I’m doing a good job with keeping them happy with who they are

I found out the inly person I trusted with everything thinks I’m overreacting

everyone thinks I’m weird annoying ugly ect…

I’ll always hurt people I care about

I worry about my future & public exams. I know that I’m never going to be successful so what is the point? I always question my existence. I honestly have no purpose. I’m good for nothing,. On top of all of this I think that I’m bisexual. I seriously just want to jump off a bridge or go to sleep and never wake up.

I think I have bipolar disorder but I have no way of going to the doctor about it. My parents don’t want me on medication for it, but I just want some kind of reassurance that this isn’t how I’m supposed to feel

I wish I could, for just one day, not have to be strong or act like I’m not going through hell or like I’m not dying inside.

Nobody ever understands my anxiety and depression and tell me to just get over it! I worry nobody will ever understand and I’ll never have the life I always wanted.

I really like a girl but I don’t know if she likes me back what should do?

This world is getting more beautiful to me.. Everyone is gifted! I’m just worried I’m too far gone..I feel like I’m being born again! Tomorrow will be tough and that’s another worry : (

Does anyone in the world please tell me on how to get a cute girlfriend?

I’m worried that I’m not good enough for anyone. I’m 14 I should worry about this crap I worry there’s something seriously wrong with me. The thoughts that go though my head day to day. I don’t want anything to be wrong with me I really don’t I just wanna be happy and heatlhy. But the smallest things bring me down and I’m scared of everything and I have no idea what to do anymore I’m only happy if I’m high or drunk. That sucks! I’m worried that in being used. I’m worried if I let someone in there just going to hurt me. I hate being hurt.

I just got out of a relationship. Even though I can’t call him mine. When he isn’t even mine, it still hurts to see him with someone else. Do you feel me…

The feeling like I’m not good enough. Like i’m not good enough to love him. Like I wasn’t perfect enough for him. Like my love doesn’t matter.

I worry that I will live my life alone, no boyfriend, nobody to love.

My cousin who is supposedly my best friend is too embarrassed to be around me or be in pictures with me. She even said that if we weren’t cousins she wouldn’t have anything to do with me. I’m afraid I’m loosing her to some other girls at school who she’s getting close with. She is hanging out with them more and she doesn’t invite me or ask to hang out. I have nobody else.

My mom told me she would quit smoking. Imm scared she is still smoking behind my back

I’ve been really stressed lately and I don’t really know why