I am always very suicidal and I self harm really bad but I can’t tell anyone or get help

I’m in grade 10 and I feel like if I don’t get a gf before I graduates , I’ll be single forever.

I’m a transboy. I have come out to my friends but I don’t have the courage to come out to my family. I’m terrified of what they’ll say.

My bf And I always FaceTime but now he is always telling me that I have to wait because he is talking to zack should I be worry that it’s not zack and that he is cheating

I worried I won’t be able to be happy. I was depressed and suicidal about 2 years ago, and ever since then I feel numb and like I have this scar on me that everyone can see, but says nothing about. I feel like I will never fully come back from it, it consumed me. I am also scared I can’t love, I had a boyfriend and he loved me, yet I felt nothing. We dated for a long time and I didn’t even have a crush on him. I’m scared I lost all emotion.

I feel like Nothing Will change, school is another worry and this school year I just let iT pass like iT never happened. When will I be happy? I feel so alone and sad.

People don’t take me seriously, I tell my best friend I’m depressed and have been seeing a therapist for over a year and she says “same” jokingly!

I’m scared that I will never have any friends while I live in this small town, there’s only 100 kids in my school and I can’t relate to anyone, I’ve lived here for four years and I don’t hang out with anybody. I’ve talked to people and tried to socialize but it just doesn’t work… I think I might have add but my mom doesn’t want me to have it so she doesn’t accept it, and my mom always shoves Christianity in my face when I’m agnostic.

My dad is getting married soon to another girl, i feel like im going to loose him Im so broken.

I get a lot of migraines and I’m scared that they’re being caused by something serious.

Kill me that all that I worth nothing no one loves me no one will miss me they will be so happy if I die or even kill myself who cares if I die no one because I am a slut and I will become nothing more I will be a mother fucking slut because that all that I can do anyone else feel like this or anything like thins

I think I need to leave my girlfriend. Things are so stressful between us and she’s putting in a lot of effort but everything that happened to us in the past still hurts me. I don’t know what to do anymore

I fell like I’m growing further and further apart from god.

I’m a dude and i hung out with this guy all summer who identifies as straight right now and it started as a joke that we were dating but then it turned into almost a real relationship, well it felt real anyways and i told him i was bi but he kept up the flirting and everything else and i fell for him but now he says hes straight and i thought he really did have feelings but i was just led on and now im struggling with a lot of anxiety and depression:/

I feel as if I’m a disappointment to everyone . It seems like I let everyone down and can’t do anything right. I get so down on myself that I think that maybe it’s better that I never even existed. They wouldn’t have to worry about me anymore and everything would be easier

Passive agressive comments make me anxious.

My Future

I worry that I worry too much.

That this app will be awesome

My boyfriend will leave me, because quite frankly, I’ve never been good enough for anyone.