I am always very suicidal and I self harm really bad but I can’t tell anyone or get help

I’m in grade 10 and I feel like if I don’t get a gf before I graduates , I’ll be single forever.

My girlfriend cheated on me some time back and I feel as if I’m no longer good for anyone else as I am also doing school online and im isolated from everything.

I went to my friends birthday party last night. There were only girls there, and I when I went home, I realized I was the only person who left and everyone else slept over and didn’t invite me. I felt so excluded.

I feel like everything’s hopeless.

Infertility runs in my family, basically all my aunts have it, and my parents had trouble with me. I’m worried I won’t be able to have kids when I get older.

I’m scared of me.

I’m Still Questioning If I’m Heterosexual Or Bisexual And IDK What People Will Think If They Think I’m Bi

i worried i might die

I pray to God- and I’m not religious- that my generation won’t be like this in the future….. It’s like not being straight is cool suddenly! It’s not!

Sometimes I feel like I’m really ready to reach out and talk to somebody about how I’m feeling, and so I try to talk to my mom. But she cuts me off and shuts me down and says “I’m trying to understand” but she won’t let me finish a sentence without butting in with a “it’s the hormones” or “its normal” or “its all in your head”.

It terrifies me how quickly I can get sick of someone. I can all of a sudden just stop having feelings about someone. I’m constantly hurting people because of it and I don’t want to do it again.

It’s time to go back to school and I’m going to grade 10 this year I’m so nervous for online courses this year I’m freaking out about it and is nervous as ever

My dad yells a lot. But then he’s all nice and cuddly and says he loves me. He seems to always blame stuff on me, even though I do the most in the house. I love him, bUT something feels wrong. He yells athe me, my mom, and my brother and I can never seem to stop crying. But then he says sorry and hugs us and I say I forgive him and a part of me that I hate does. I don’t know what this is.

I’m worried that I’m going no where

My boyfriend of a year and a half had sex with me and 2 hours later broke up with me. I feel used. I feel like I’m not good enough for anything.

My Future

I worry that I worry too much.

That this app will be awesome

My boyfriend will leave me, because quite frankly, I’ve never been good enough for anyone.