i worried i might die

I pray to God- and I’m not religious- that my generation won’t be like this in the future….. It’s like not being straight is cool suddenly! It’s not!

Sometimes I feel like I’m really ready to reach out and talk to somebody about how I’m feeling, and so I try to talk to my mom. But she cuts me off and shuts me down and says “I’m trying to understand” but she won’t let me finish a sentence without butting in with a “it’s the hormones” or “its normal” or “its all in your head”.

It terrifies me how quickly I can get sick of someone. I can all of a sudden just stop having feelings about someone. I’m constantly hurting people because of it and I don’t want to do it again.

It’s time to go back to school and I’m going to grade 10 this year I’m so nervous for online courses this year I’m freaking out about it and is nervous as ever

My dad yells a lot. But then he’s all nice and cuddly and says he loves me. He seems to always blame stuff on me, even though I do the most in the house. I love him, bUT something feels wrong. He yells athe me, my mom, and my brother and I can never seem to stop crying. But then he says sorry and hugs us and I say I forgive him and a part of me that I hate does. I don’t know what this is.

I’m worried that I’m going no where

My boyfriend of a year and a half had sex with me and 2 hours later broke up with me. I feel used. I feel like I’m not good enough for anything.

My Future

I worry that I worry too much.

That this app will be awesome

My boyfriend will leave me, because quite frankly, I’ve never been good enough for anyone.

Worry about what other people are saying when I am no longer in the same room.

Coming out and worrying about if people will accept me because I’m gay

That someone will fall in love with me and then see my self harm scars or see me naked and my body or see me angry and sad and anxious or having a panic attack and leave.

I worry that people will judge me if/when they find out about my bipolar disorder.

I’m worried about my exam grades and how my parents will react

That my friend doesn’t trust me.

That I’ll disapoint my parents and the people that believe in me

Failing high school