I want to tell my mom about what really goes on my head and why I don’t want to go to school anymore but I’m afraid she’ll hate me

My step mom found out I self harmed and she told my dad who told my mom how told my brother and sister and now it feels like I’m being treated differently and I don’t like it. It makes me wanna do it again more and more. And it feels like they don’t fully trust me with anything sharp. It just bothers me and I can’t stop thinking about it.

I wish I could get out of high school. Everyone talks about it getting better but I don’t want to wait

That my depression will drive everyone away.

I feel like my boyfriend don’t want to be with me anymore because of my depressed and my anxiety and also because of me cutting myself

I feel like I’m not going to be able to get anywhere in life once I finish school. I do have some goals for the future, but I keep worrying that I will fail to reach them.

I worry that my depression and anxiety scare everyone away and that I’m never good enough for anyone because I feel like I’m nothing

I’m self conscience when I wear shorts and everyone always asks me why I’m wearing leggings when so warm out and I say I’m cold…

I trust no one. There is literally so much pressure on my heart

School is just around the corner and my stress and angseity is starting to kick in again

People don’t understand that I have diagnosed anxiety and they still put pressure on me to do things I don’t feel comfortable doing. They say “well you have to do it sometime” or “put on your big girl shoes” , it’s like no one understands. I really want people to stop pressuring me

Family

Getting bullyed

I am worried all loose all my friends because of the people that pick on me.. Iam afraid they’ll start hating me too because of the way I dress and the music I listen too.

Never being good enough.

I worry that my dad is going to be mad when I tell him I want to live full time with mom.

that I wont get over my ED.

That I’m just not living the life that I expected for myself !

I’m afraid that I’ll go as crazy as I feel

I’m worried that I will grow up to be a failure and never accomplish anything