What people will think of me in the school musical

I worry that I’ll never get help or get better. I’ve tried so many times, and even though everyone thinks I’m getting better, I’m getting so much worse.

School.

that I will never find love. I’m never going to be skinny or pretty enough for anyone.

I feel like I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life:(

My Ocd is taking over :/

I try so hard at school and yet my parents think I’m such an idiot because I’m not getting 100 in every course

I can’t stop thinking about ending my life. Every night when I close my eyes I see myself with a noose around my neck. I don’t know how to fix this

I can sing in front of a lot of people but I can’t do public speaking :/

I am worried that with all the people complaining to you, with (EG) “omg so ands smith said that I looked like I changed my weight by one pound like oh my god” while real people are dealing with physical bullying, and have it far worse, (even though everyone complains about something important to them) than the people that complain for the sake of it. I can relate to the fact of bullying!!

I feel like I can’t handle this anymore I wanna die but I can’t do it myself

my family doesn’t know how to deal with my depression and anixety so they pretend I don’t have it and I let them

So I realized high school tougher then I thought the friends I had in grade 6 now in grade 10 all turned there back rumours lied to back talk making fun I have no one to depend on anymore only my family I want like someone to be around in school not sit in the corner by myself and no even says good morning or hello I always think it because of my problems ADHD autism assburger OCD picking disorder anxiety disorder I always blame it on them I just feel like no one there and according to my parents I’m always in a ready to fight mood not actually fight like talk back I don’t know what to,do does anyone else find high school hard I never did weed or smoked no drugs nothing like that I have to take prescriptions suscibed by my doctor everyday and when I graduate I’m still not gonna be old enough to drink but everyone gets wasted on grad I just really want to know if people are feeling the same way and I’ve liked this guy in my class 2 of them if one has a girlfriend I wouldn’t mind the other but every boy is either basketball skidoo bmx trikes all that aparaently me and my friend or was I don’t know she won’t really tell me that we are the only girls who havent had sex why would you want that if you loved that person a lot sure it’s like if my friend is around the class she a b_ _ _ _ but when were with the all the girls in volleyball she so nice I don’t know would like to know if people are experiencing this to

My religion making life harder when it’s supposed to do the opposite. I worry all the time whether I’m dissapointing or hurting God because of rough patch I’m going through.

That in the summer my my friends family will see my scars when I’m invited to swim with them.

So I have a boyfriend. But I think I might like my friend ….. Who is a girl. This girl hates me but I do like her. Idk if I’m Bi or stright or gay. I need help

Sometimes I think about self harming I scratch my self because I’m to fat And today I made my self bleed Only a drop but Oh I really don’t want to be like this I hate asking for help I don’t know what to do

I’m worried that I’ll never have a good relationship… It seems that every guy I go out with doesn’t care about my feelings. I’ve had almost every type of boyfriend. The cheaters, the liars, and the ones that made me feel horrible about myself. I just don’t know about anything anymore.

My anxiety makes me think of every day as bad because there’s always one embarrassing/sad/messy moment. That’s just life but it deeply irritates me.

I worry about everything is gonna go wrong for me… I’m already going down the wrong path with life…only 14 and can’t stand this kinda life!:(