How to hide self harm scars I’m scared

My daughter.

I will lose my job because I am too nervous to ask for help and I keep screwing up.

Never being good enough,

That I’m just not living the life that I expected for myself !

I’m afraid that I’ll go as crazy as I feel

I’m worried that I will grow up to be a failure and never accomplish anything

I’m afraid that people will soon see me the way I see myself.

Not being able to feel normal because I’m bi sexual and I got a eating disorder am I broken?

That I’ll never be noticed but always looked through by people as if I don’t even exist, I’m just invisible.

I’m worried that I’ll start cutting again

Im afraid im gonna relapse

Everything is falling apart

I’m not good enough for my boyfriend

Everyday I worry about my sIze and being bigger than the other girls, It’s making my confidence ALOT worse everyday Why can’t I just be skinny ?

I’ve been self-harming for 3 years, and I’ve been clean for almost 4 months, and I’ve recently been craving to do it again… any advice on how to deal with the urges

My dad is going to work away and it is the first time in 15 yrs what will I do without a dad

My mom dosent like my boyfriend at all.. Because he is older. But hes a really sweet guy and i love him so much. My dad hates him but he dosent even know we date yet.. So i’m afraid im going to lose him..

I don’t want my parents to see my scars. I’ll have to explain stories and explain how I fought battles with myself because I’m struggling. They just won’t understand…

I had a problem with people around me at school tell me that my father didn’t want me has his son and what I said it’s didn’t madder what I say because none isn’t going to listen too me and even sometime the teacher it’s making fun of me the way I talk spelling and playing music and I don’t know what to do I’m afraid to get help because I would get laughs at by others.