i just dont know what to do…… im the only asexual

I really like this guy. He’s cute, we both like some of the same things (memes, etc), and we have great conversations over text, but I find it terribly hard to talk to him in real life. I get awfully shy, and even when I text him, I feel that I’m bothering him and that he doesn’t truly want to talk to me or even be friends. As well, one of his closest friends makes me uneasy, and I feel uncomfortable trying to talk to him with that friend around, although his other friends are quite nice. I feel like I might end up driving them apart somehow, and I’d feel awful if I did. More than anything, I wish I didn’t feel like this.

I am scared when I am alone.

I’m in my second semester of collage and I’m glad I got through the first but it was really tough and stressful on me especially living so far from my boyfriend. I’m afraid that this distance is the reason why I’m not doing as well as I should be but I also don’t want to give him up and I’m not sure what to do.

How depressed my friends are.

I am going to be charged will shop lifting, I didn’t do it but I was there when my friend did.

I worry that I’ll always be unmotivated, anxious and thinking negatively about my capability of doing things. I worry that it’ll never get better and I’ll be stuck in the same place with the same horrible feelings forever.

I worry that I will have a panic attack in a public place.

I don’t think I’ll get into university

Turning into my parents. They’re good people but they’re not the people I want to be.

That no one will ever like me again because of stupid mistakes

That I will fail in life and make my parents disappointed…

I am just always left out, I barly talk and people call me weird, I am so stressed out about school and I have socal phobia my “friends” make fun of me and I am always left out I think I will always be that kid and will never make any friends

I worry that my boyfriend will leave me because he likes another girl who loves him

That it will never become easier to deal with all my mental problems

My boyfriend broke up with me a day before valentines day, now I’m home all alone and depressed while my parents go out and so do all my friends….

people will never talk to me outside of school. I message people but they never seem to get back to me.

That my depression will win…

I’m worried that the person who I like don’t like me back and it’s holding me back in school

I worry that I’ll never be able to overcome my anxiety and it’ll prevent me from doing amazing things in the future